I'm TOTALLY deeply crash down....someone pls pls help me
cos i'm so helpless...
Whenever someone is feeling down, i will be there for *. But when i'm down, there's no one there for me. This few days life is really hard for me. U dunno how long i took to forget u, but u jus drag me back again within days and now i back to the days when i tried to forget u once again....I tried to forget all the things tat u told me but i couldnt, I felt cheated...all the things u said is jus a lie...look like i'm jus being used. When ppl need me, they come and look for me, but when they dun need me anymore, they will throw me one side....WHY! WHY!
Am i really deserve tat kind of treatment!!
How i wish world cup nvr ends, how i wish i din sacrifice, how i wish tat night nvr ends.....
The only moment i cherish alot is when u sat beside the bed holding my hand....
Knowing tat i once had you that kills me!
Someone pls lend me ur hand, pull me up and make me stand strong once again....pls....cos i really need.
3:49 PM
I Thought I will never need to write on this blog anymore...
BUT i was wrong.......
This is the only place where i can really type out all the things tat i really want to say....
I'm Tired.....All This Years I thought i can survive alone. I thought i can stand strong, I thought i can fight on my own, I thought when i fall again, i can stand up on my own.....I thought...I thought.......But I realised I can't, not till one day I found tat someone who stays by me when i needed someone...i thought my life is changing but till one day I decided to make a sacrifice to turn everything right again before things go worse.....and I know I will lose you....Tat someone who I need is no longer stays by me, all the things tat someone said to me is no longer important anymore.
All this days, I been facing alot of problems but I'm on my own, I can no longer find anyone to stay by me......
No Matter how much u do, No one sees it, No one appreciate it.......ALL this time no one know how u feel....cos u are always smiling in front of ppl.
Now Your Toe is still swollen and pain after so many days, and you are going hospital for X-ray next Thurs and I'm really scared, I scared of the X-ray result, I scared the result will affect me.
Can I pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars so that i can really make a wish right now......but when will my wish come true.......
My Home is always dear to me.....always....
